This quote resonates with me so much. Inside my head, I can hear my ‘true’ self screaming YES!!! Finally someone totally gets it… I am not completely alone in this world. I’m not as rare as I once thought.
After my last mental health breakdown… which was a culmination of several years ranging from 2008 until about 2017. I often thought “who the f*ck am I? Will I ever get me back? Am I lost for good? Was the “me” I use to be the real one, or was I this person all along?
I now have the answer to those questions because for the first time in years, I look into that mirror, and with tears, I see who it was I loved… I see myself again. I see the compassion, and love, I see the person that others came to know and love. I lost myself to this cruel disorder. The shell of me, because of the bipolar 1 disorder that ran rampant like a wildfire in my head, that girl who I couldn’t stand looking at… that person was now gone. I hope she never returns, and I strive each day to move forward in love for myself, and the knowledge that I have gained from my painful life experiences.
The pain is like a fire, a cleansing fire… and I fight, continue on, creating new moments, and holding on to the opportunity to fix things that went wrong. I am healing daily, and want to help those who love me and have been hurt by me… they need healing as well, we all need healing, and I will do all I can to help…
That is love… and I am love. <— notice the positive affirmation I snuck in?? -smile- being positive does rewire your brain, and the more positive affirmations I can sneak into my life, the better!